Journeys of A Man

One Sense

2010-09-08T23:18:00.002-05:00

Hello
I tried to reach you
You tried too
The years got in between
The morning's sunbeams
and the night's dreams

Hello
I reached for you
I really tried
The passing of time
and the fine line
got caught in my mind

Hello
I fell so hard
and didn't get back up
I still haven't
gotten back up

Hello
play that song
the one I wrote
about old friends
and how to begin
again

begin
again

Hello
it's been a while
how have you been?
I must begin...
...again.

Follow the rabbit down the hole.
Follow the path wherever it goes.
No matter where it goes.
I must follow.
Hello.
I must follow.
Hello.
I must follow.

2009-07-22T16:06:00.001-05:00

Nothing changes if nothing changes.

first from forever

2009-01-10T23:33:00.000-06:00

Photogenic
flash
charcoal on canvas
snow near my window
sketches of an afternoon
tides on the shore
and a reflecting moon
walls are covered
the ground is covered
these dreams are just illusions

2008-12-03T22:02:00.000-06:00

Candle in the window
cold in the air
leaves fall
don't we all
I want to say I'm sorry
I want to say thank you
I want to say what needs to be said
before my last day is through

(journeys from long ago / entry 2)

2008-09-25T14:46:00.000-05:00

Took a ride to the city limit sign
looked at it for one last time
hit the accelerator and said goodbye

took a drive up the interstate
thinking so much he couldn't concentrate
on the future that has burned the past
needs answers to all the questions he has left to ask
so much still left to do
can at least one dream come true

(journeys from long ago / entry 1)

2008-09-25T14:16:00.000-05:00

lifted off the street
sat down on a chair
taken from that place
morphine taste
Cereal and milk
water and pills
ocean carry me
help me to feel free
please
please
ease my mind
let me forget the thing I've left behind
naked in the eyes
can you hear my cries
I think that you do
and who am I to become
where do we belong
stuck on this earth
Lord, I cannot fly
nor can I
ask why
I should not ask why.
I should not ask why.
Lifted from a chair
and thrown into the sea. Forced to swim. Swim towards me.

2008-07-31T21:28:00.000-05:00

You lie
July

2008-07-29T21:45:00.000-05:00

There is no magic pill.
There is no happiness in material things.
There is no reasoning with you.
There is no going back.

When your time is up,
it's up.

And what you never got around to do,
is something you'll have to live with when your days are through.

That Shiver Down Your Spine, That Tear In Your Eye, That Genuine Smile

2008-06-13T11:31:00.001-05:00

If we don’t move
We will die
If there’s no spark
There’s no fire
And if there’s no moon
There’s no rise in the tides

So spin
Around the sun
Come completely undone

Or stay together
Rooted like a tree
But let your branches
Be a place for birds to rest

If I don’t make a change
Then I’ll always be the same
If a man’s home
Is where he lays his head
Then what’s the reason for a soul to move when he is dead

Home is a feeling
An emotion
A love
A devotion
Across the shores
Of thousands of uncharted oceans

So spin
Around the sun
Come completely undone

Or stay together
Rooted like a tree
But let your branches
Be a place for birds to rest

2008-06-09T22:08:00.001-05:00

I'm a lost vagabond
with hair of fading blonde
and tired blue eyes
it's high time i get wise
I'm a lost vagabond, in my mind

what's the future hold
time, or so I'm told
they call it eternity
but is it waiting for me
I'm a lost soul, falling behind

What's the path
to avoid the wrath
dreams of the young
uttered from infant tongues
wished and made in time

i'm a whisper
or a ghost if you prefer
endlessly tangled and caught
in a web of useless thoughts
have I been blind

Losing Faith, Gaining Love

2008-05-23T14:52:00.000-05:00

What’s a man to do when his future’s faded
And all his fortune’s been raided
By time
and those left far behind
I’m not sure what the visions mean
That come to me in my dreams
But I could sit upon this shore
For just a few days more
Yet time, time always calling me
Telling the tale that’s wasting
Like the sand castle by the sea
The sun is setting

They say that nothing will last
And a man can be haunted by his past
It’s not a very wide net that I cast
To catch the chances that are going fast
And, yes I’ve had people say to me
You can’t wallow in misery
But the times and society
Have led me to disagree

And if no man is an island
Then why are we so alone
We don’t even know our neighbors
Who live right outside our home
And the king stands in his palace
And laughs at us poor souls
But I’ve got more wealth
Than all of his bags of gold
Cause I am loved

Sunday's wish

2008-05-11T22:43:00.000-05:00

If we've crossed paths, I hope you know how I feel about you.

2008-04-28T20:31:00.000-05:00

oil and water
day and night
colliding
sending me spinning

In the grass

2008-04-04T16:44:00.000-05:00

The lies that spill from your mouth
The thought that’s in your thinking
The time and the planning

You move like a snake through the grass
Dripping fangs
and rattle quiet

You’re ready to strike
At the mouse
At the horse
At the cowboy
At anything
At anytime

Yes, you’re out there
Our paths have crossed
And only time
Healed my wounds

March

2008-03-28T23:53:00.000-05:00

Chasing dreams is a hard thing to do, but I wouldn't want anyone but me walking in my shoes.

Insane...slowly losing my mind

2008-03-24T23:19:00.000-05:00

I've come to believe that musicians are crazy...
...mental in the head.
And so I'm willing to jump off the deep end.
Let's go.
Let's see.
Let's discover insanity.

in the distance

2008-03-20T00:01:00.000-05:00

I close my eyes
here I stand, in my grandfather's cornfield
Texas sun surrounded by a barbed-wire fence
but it's acres and acres of endless possibility
because it's all available to me
a lake and a barn
an old steel structure that holds old hardware
a few steps away, a well that's covered with old wooden planks

I take a breath
and open my eyes
only to inhale and close them again

Years down the line
I'm standing on a balcony
overlooking what's come and gone
so many things that have slipped through my hands
or was it that it was never meant to be
I'm standing in Nashville, Tennessee

And today, I hear the faint cries of a song
The beat starts in my heart
The strings are somewhere in the distance
The words are at my tongue
The breath to push them out is in my lungs
But today, I’m doubting if I’ll ever hear it played in full

Yes the world, my friends, is full
Full of possibilities
So full of possibilities
But also full of things that were never meant to be

The Lion's Roar

2008-02-25T23:07:00.001-06:00

A lion's roar
A tale of enemies
All the time on Earth
stretched out before you
like a panoramic movie
and you watch in fast-forward
wave after wave
a bird spreads its wings
like a child's smile spreads from cheek to cheek
and in the moment it was a natural act
and in the moment it was a fatal act
and in the moment it was done out of love
and in the moment it was done out of hate
and in the moment it wasn't what you wanted it to be
and in the moment it was just fruit taken from a tree

And his eyes were wide open
and her eyes needed shade from the sun
and the light of God, stretched out over the land
like a lion's roar

Weary soldier

2008-02-02T22:58:00.000-06:00

Take the vile
drink what it contains
a pin drop
heard across a room
the light heading this way could be a train
should I move?
should I stay?

Going Nowhere Fast

2008-01-02T16:37:00.001-06:00

I have a smile that could kill from a thousand paces
But I don’t take it out these days to any places
It’s drowning away
Inside a sea of grey

I don’t want to go through the motions
I’d rather rise and fall in a thousand oceans
Golden sunsets
With no regrets

But I’m living my days trapped against the turning of the world
Stuck in a chair
Going nowhere
But down

I wish an army would save me
Lift me from the depths back to sanity
I’ve taken far too many doses of reality
Now give me fantasy

Fantasy
Baby
I could run
Fantasy
Baby
I could come undone
Fantasy
Baby
Dream how I want to live
Live how I want to dream

Winter's fire

2007-12-27T20:56:00.000-06:00

needle to the record
cracking
popping
the beat of the drum
sticks on cymbals, steady clicks
winter in my breathing
in and out
until it fades for a moment
wanting to do something dangerous
hazardous to my health
take that chance
winter coat
winter coat
the one with the pocket
that's held a memento of the past for years
look at it, return it
the sound of the acoustic guitar
as if God Himself is speaking to me
funny
I never learned to play
and another year is about to go away
I need a thousand voices
a few kindred souls
light the fire
to survive the winter
to survive this life
winter coat
something to behold
keeping me warm through these years
the stories I could tell
sitting by that fire
wherever that fire burns
cracking
popping

11/15/07 The Menil's yard and Cali's Sub

2007-11-15T14:35:00.000-06:00

A restaurant I’ve never been to before
Take-out
To the park
Sunshine casting shadows from the trees
Green, green grass
And falling leaves
A sandwich
Time to let my legs stretch
Birds and breezes
A decade removed
Sunglasses
shade my eyes with my hand to make the figures more visible
a gallery of this day
hanging in my mind for me to see

a month of tuesdays

2007-11-06T13:21:00.000-06:00

Water stored, comes pouring down
Black ash rises from the ground
A busted dream
A broken being
In the silence
Nothing
Everything
Explaining it all
That from which we came
Returning to one day
The same
But changed
The same
But changed
No one knows my name
The Devil’s dream
God’s scene
Kings and queens
What does it mean

ink

2007-10-12T23:34:00.000-05:00

I’m spiting dust
A folding sun
Snake skin
Cracked chin
Broken hand
A soul to mend
Wealth is burned
Time is turned
Bullets and calibers
Summers and winters
Freedom, lonesome, busted thumb
Roadside disaster
Searching for an answer
Burn the fuel
What’s left in the tank
Time to think
Take a drink
Write the ink

so...so...so...slow burn

2007-10-12T23:19:00.000-05:00

you almost crashed into me
were you lost in an MP3?
It happened on the freeway...
...I guess your free to kill, and to be killed.
A cracked computer screen...
...the same one I want to put my fist through.
Devils and angels.
I don't have many friends.
But Myspace says I have a ton.
Friends are just hard to come by these days.
But that's okay...because they don't come along everyday.
I'm tired of sports. Juiced up thieves waiting for a release.
I don't even have time to sit in the sun...
...too chained to the cubicle near the window.
So...so...so...so...
...slow burn

take

2007-10-06T23:48:00.000-05:00

take your money and give yourself a hand
I'll take the microphone and sing with the band
you forget I won't regret
the way that time was spent

begin

2007-09-27T23:05:00.000-05:00

I do believe that’s what it was
It was what it was
A perfect moment
without judgment
I could see in your eyes
The consciousness of lies
And the imperfections
That could send out countless reflections
To the eyes
To the mind
Where am I to ever find
A rodeo
A perfect glow
The one I know I don’t know
There she was
There she is
Falling in a relative kiss
She doesn’t know
Doesn’t mind
That I’ll never feel fine
In my mind
In my mind
I see kites flying side by side
In my mind
In my mind I see boats cutting tides
I see you
I see them
I see a world where I begin
To remember
The winter
The days of simple breeze
I feel warm
I feel alive
I feel lost inside this night
I feel cold
I feel worn
I feel a remorse for things adorned
I could pass through this night
But what becomes of first light?
Was it you
Was it me
That formed that memory
In the night
By the trains
I wanted to but I refrained
And it’s intent
In fact
It’s all that remains
I never knew I’d be there
Never know how much you cared
Because we parted ways
Burning fire lanes
I see you
You see me
We’ve become things that will never be
I see light
I see day
I felt you walk away
I know
I could go
But I’d rather stay
Wait, not for not
I believe in brighter days
Wait, not for not
I believe in brighter days
So spin
Spin, spin, spin, spin, spin
This feeling never ends
When I begin
Spin spin spin
This feeling never ends when I begin
Ohhhhhhhhh
Ohhhhhhhh
When
I
Begin

A descent in order to rise

2007-09-27T22:32:00.000-05:00

A root
Takes hold and won’t let go
Waiting for water
Struggling for life
There is an unending need, deep
Deep and so dark

Buried below
Green above the surface
Fading to brown
But still holding on
waiting for the sun
waiting for growth

Ghost Town

2007-09-19T20:51:00.000-05:00

Traveling down a street I have not been down in years.

Where we go?

2007-09-12T22:24:00.000-05:00

fire breathing dragon emerging from the ground
wind blowing
rain falling
falling to the ground

dancing people round and round
circles, turning
music playing
continuous noises, sound

God is great
God is good
let us thank him for this food

Spinning, spinning
out of control
never knowing
where we go

Wake from sleep
tired and aching
must keep moving
daylight's breaking

Into the city
into the fray
disappearing
a little more each day

Sense?

2007-09-06T22:53:00.000-05:00

A cold chill in the air tonight.
But still, it causes me to pause.
Like an amplifier and a microphone
and the odd buzzing noise that they both emit
and the pulse quickens
thoughts race
and you hope you remember your lines
not like you haven't sung them a thousand times

And in the trees
the past
in the air
uncertainty
always, uncertainty
but trying to change it is like holding a burning match

And so, I'm left with everything
So much to be thankful for
and a fire-ant's sting
is repeated
like 10 years of thoughts running through your mind at once.

Nashville, and a few bills

2007-08-23T23:25:00.000-05:00

At this very moment, I wish I had an extra $275.00 and a couple of days off work.
I could go very, very far with it.

room to breathe

2007-08-16T09:09:00.000-05:00

The sun spills the shadow of a tree over the green grass below.
And the wind...
...ahh, it's the wind that move the leaves that reminds me of a million sparkles of the sun's rays on the sea.
The moon could do the same, but the moon's light is just a reflection of the sun's rays.

28

2007-08-09T11:24:00.001-05:00

28
I love the mix of sound and words.
Played and sung.
When you first hear a song, it’s all so new.
And magical, like a first—hello, kiss, and laugh at a joke told.
I don’t mind growing old.
Like vinyl, modern to vintage.
With every year, God still wants me here.
For this I’ll be thankful.
I’ve been promising new songs for a while now.
I have the words but no music.
Maybe that will change this year.
That’s my wish.
28

27, and unfinished thoughts

2007-08-08T21:48:00.000-05:00

I don't want to go to sleep yet.
I want to hold a match until it becomes impossible because of the heat.
Then I'll need to blow it out, or just drop it and wonder if I could have held it longer.
Could I?
Yes?
No?
Then I remember the look in the man's face today.
The look in the woman's face the day before that.
They were bored.
They were tired of our conversation.
Sometimes I want to grab people by the shoulder and shake them until I can get through to them that today could be their last.
To smile more, or to cry.
Shit, just do something.
And then, yes, after all this...I think, what does it matter?
If they don't care then why should I?
Should I?
Yes?
No?
It's funny how fast the years are going by.
My friend asked the other day if I ever battled with depression.
Don't we all?
Yes?
No?
I guess it's just more obvious with me because I leave it out here for everyone to read.
I work it, carve it down in words here...yet, I do that so that I can leave it behind.
Like the old Candlebox song, far behind.
I like to leave some emotions here, and leave them in my past so I don't have to carry them on this journey.

So to answer a question, yes...I am happy.
Yes, I am sad.
But isn't that life?

27 turns to 28.

It's a...

2007-08-05T21:06:00.000-05:00

...boy.

2007-07-21T22:55:00.000-05:00

view from a window

2007-07-20T13:52:00.000-05:00

this incessant rain
penny for you thoughts
view from a window
cars go by

Everyday
Cars go by

6/28

2007-06-28T14:51:00.000-05:00

two life changing events
one year apart
you
me
one for eternity
outside the roses grow wild and free

2007-06-21T21:13:00.000-05:00

to feel, maybe you lost it
and you wrote that song
to feel, maybe your heart got broken
and you wrote that song
to feel, maybe you felt all alone
and you wrote that song
to feel, maybe you just wanted to sing
and you wrote that song
to feel, maybe you felt the rain on your face
and you wrote that song
to feel, maybe you had the greatest day
and you wrote that song
to feel
I've felt your song

to sleep

2007-06-17T01:59:00.000-05:00

close my eyes
a mirror-ball in a movie theatre
the projector shining
and the mirrors reflect the frames
scattering them into the corners of the room
the ceiling
the floor
my face
her face
into the darkness
turning to light
shadows hiding no more
lighting the way

Another Round?

2007-06-14T23:59:00.000-05:00

Another Round?
It's 11:59
I could step out the door and leave today behind
but all of these things would follow me in my mind
there is no safe, no chest I could keep them in
no prison to trap them
yes another round
and today becomes yesterday's tomorrow
as the clock hits the 12 o'clock hour

boy

2007-06-13T23:14:00.000-05:00

Keon, Lani, Lei, Leo, Li, Liam, Lio, Liu, Logan, Lobo, Luc, Luke, Ky, Khye, Afton, Ahanu, Asa, August, Avery, Cadro, Cannon, Chanse, Channing, Chant, Chase, Cike, Kian, Kiran, Colin, Keyan, Dante, Arell, Dia, Edan, Evan, Gavin, Haden, Izzy, Kadin, Zac, Keaton, Keller, Drake, Lee, Shiloh, Miller, Noah, Owen, Samuel, Sean, Seth, Soren, Wyatt, Keyin, Mikah, Micah

girl

2007-06-13T23:11:00.000-05:00

Afton, Lorina, Abby, Erin, Alana, Amelia, Amy, Ani, Anica, Anjelica, Anna, Asa, Augustine, Kaelyn, Karina, Carina, Claire, Clara, Danna, Dawn, Jewel, Elisa, Emerald, Frida, Gaby, Joan, Gloria, Hazel, Jada, Joni, Josephine, Kylee, Lani, Leilani, Luna, Maryann, Meg, Monet, Maria, Oneida, Penelope, Reanna, Sabrina, Sade, Samantha, Charlie, Sharlee, Seda, Serena, Sheila, Shauna, Shiloh, Shilo, Sidney, Tatum, Taylor, Thea, Trinity, Vail, Valerie, Vanessa, Vivian, Zada, Zeta, Zetta, Zoe

the depths

2007-06-11T16:44:00.000-05:00

I sink my eyes into the ocean
and in front of me
are millions of tiny fish
Swimming, waiting, wading
There are bigger fish in this ocean
Swimming, waiting, hungry
And like the hairs on my head
God knows of each ones’ existence
But is there a pre-determined destiny for each fish?
Or are we all just swimming, waiting, breathing?
There are a lot of things I still don’t understand.
I’m only a man.
There are a lot of things I still don’t understand.
I’m only a man.

When will afternoon become evening?

2007-05-30T17:22:00.000-05:00

The blanket covers me
til I'm drowning in fabric
I can't stand it
it hurts, it hurts
yet I'm freezing
it's so cold I need it, I need it
I could do without the drowning
it's like the one lover who
didn't love you back
it's a train that's jumped its track
just to crack your back
when you went for a walk
and now your body is surrounded by white-chalk

solo

2007-05-08T16:55:00.000-05:00

When I crossover it's just me, right?
It's just me on that journey?

It is just me on that journey.

What is the question?
The question is, who will meet me on the other side?
I've thought, I've tried, but they don't come to mind.
If you see this as desperation, well then I guess it's desperation.

It's hard to be me in this world.
It's hard to be me in this world.
Shut it all down and spin...yeah, go for a whirl.

It is just me on that journey.

2007-05-05T17:34:00.000-05:00

Everything
That
Everyone
Remembers
Now
Increased
Ten-million
Years

2007-05-05T17:09:00.000-05:00

Alguna vez despues,
Alguna vez antes,
En alguna parte de en medio,
Nos fuimos seperando poco a poco
Y se que no puedo regresar
a ella de nuevo,
No hasta que mi corazon
piense que puedo.

Who are you?

2007-05-04T00:49:00.000-05:00

If you are out there, sign your name.
If you're shy, let me start...Joam...or is it...

quicksand

2007-05-04T00:44:00.000-05:00

I went looking for you
you weren't looking for me
did our paths ever cross
or was the cause always lost?
Where tears sank into the Earth
and emotions were stuck like large stones
my emotions had lost all their worth
and my body was a pile of bones.

echo (sing it back)

2007-04-30T20:21:00.000-05:00

the dawn has come and gone
and I lay in the field
with an evening sky
the jokes you told
the ideas my mind holds
the shy and the bold
like an echo
sing it back
like an echo
sing it back
like an echo
how far will you go
where no one can follow

Pierced

2007-04-27T23:12:00.000-05:00

On the hill I stand.
I stand tall.
Trees around me lose their leaves.
Sunrays cut through the darkness in-between the hills.
The light surrounds me, engulfs me; takes me higher.
Leaves are rolling down the hill.
I am flying with the light.
Traveling through the trees, around the leaves.
When God wants me to stop He'll let the sun go down in-between the hills.
I'll never return to the places I knew, and when the sun sets on a different day I will have many new visitors to my home.

creation

2007-04-27T23:06:00.000-05:00

An angel stands in the crystal rain
the sky turns pink, then blue, now white
the ocean turns around and rolls into sight

The sun becomes a small white pearl
the ocean rises up to catch it in its fall
the earth grows and the universe gets so small

The clouds move and form into one
lightning strikes and the earth's soul pierces the sky
the stars shoot down, it's their time to die

Sleep well in the arms of the ocean
Goodnight sweet ones
don't worry because right behind you
are your daughters and your sons.

2007-04-27T23:02:00.000-05:00

Shoot a bullet in the sky
and claim the wound for me
follow the stars as they fall like rain
and be happy you set them free
rocking chair on the front porch and baby's robe in blue
Open your heart to me and I will
open mine to you.

Stand Your Ground

2007-04-24T13:20:00.000-05:00

If you’re a fighter son
Then swing
And don’t take lightly
The way they invade your space
Life is sweat and blood
And dreams and love
It’s midnight
And the sun in your eyes
It’s brutal honesty
And terrible lies
It’s heaven
and hell
if you’re a fighter
then breathe
and swing

before the after

2007-04-22T14:14:00.000-05:00

Your pupil goes from large to small
You’re climbing too fast, prepare for a fall
In the end you’re right back where you began
Wondering over and over and over again
If doing something before the after has changed things at all

Do not bring me flowers at my death
Bring them to me while I still have breath
Tell me everything you have wanted to say
Before they lay my body down in my grave

You never can see the true ending until the end

When dust kicks up over the dawn

Last night I walked in the past while I was standing in the present and looking to the future

What shall become of us?

Adam and Eve probably would not believe what we have done

Let’s call this one a night
We’ll stumble back home and hope to feel alright
And with the morning light in plain sight
I know I’d feel better with you by my side

Before the after

I know not what is to come
Count your blessings one by one
Don’t make a mockery of things you’ve never seen
Wishing for a life that came to me in a dream
This day will repeat tomorrow and everyday following

I could say I’m sorry for all the things I’ve done to you,
But all of those apologies would never relieve the pain you’re going through

Just a little , a little more
My feet are not ready for the floor
Be
I can be
Before
Before the after

Do you hear the sound through the walls?
A wave that lifts up will surely fall
Or will it roll on and on
Until we are forever gone
No one will know your name
Damn, what a shame

Kid kicked a hole in a star

neighborhood

2007-04-22T14:10:00.000-05:00

I'm back in the neighborhood again
and I'm feeling like a stranger in my own skin
and there are things that have changed
and things that have not
and there are things I remember
and things that I've forgot

carrying the wounded

2007-04-16T15:52:00.000-05:00

I've been sitting with the ghosts of my past
and they all laugh
carrying daggers
hands covering bleeding hearts
only a few smile
but only because I've gone miles and miles
and haven't found the path...

...but I know I'm on the right track.

Nashville (revisited, if only in my mind)

2007-04-16T12:29:00.000-05:00

pulled into town with what I had packed
leaving Texas almost a thousand miles back
A sunny day, with the rocks by the road
nothing on my mind
except getting to Nashville
I-65
country music
music
all the people
all the bars
I'm in and out as fast as the drinks can flow
music always around, following me like a shadow
and all the regrets and dreams mix together
it's a constant flux of sunny and rainy weather
From the elders going to church
to the dreamers in the coffee shops
to the singers in the bars
to the stay at homes eating lunch and driving fancy cars
for me, Johnny Cash died on the radio
following a love he'd come to know
a few years later his home would burn down
burn down all the way to the ground
Friends with their perfect smiles
parking cars at Dunn's house
a wedding night drive down Hillsboro Road
singing songs as we go
the loop
Lightning on my stereo
looking for somewhere to belong
the Mercy Lounge
looking at the Nashville skyline
all lit up at night
a sense that it might be alright
in that moment
I was glad to be there
because once the moment passed
I knew it would no longer be there
music, music everywhere
music, music everywhere
The Ryman
a temple for the lyricist
a temple for the player
a temple for the singer
Nashville
I wish, I would, I will
Nashville
A look from the rooftops
No one notices, not even the cops
Old country roads
Old farm homes
Turning them to mansions and land
For the progress of mankind
Sing
Sing a song
When the day is done
It will be all I’ll have to hold on to

One Point in Time

2007-04-13T15:34:00.001-05:00

Points in time
Connected like separate stars
When put together; shed light on life
A star dies
And through space and time
Its light flies
To shine down on those in a future tense
Thousands of years burnt out
Made for those who wish without doubt

A Son dies
And through space and time
His light shines
An example for those in a future tense
Thousands of years removed
Made for those who believe without proof

Shine down

blue on blue

2007-04-04T17:17:00.000-05:00

I wore the raindrops like a crown
my head held high
water following the path
from my hair
down my cheek
with my feet
shuffling through the puddles in the street

Thunder and lightning outside
but quiet and calm inside
inside the deepest part of me
near the heart, where I feel the beats

An awkward solitude
in a constantly audible world
her sulky lip
I love to kiss this girl
Change the mood
Blue on blue

2007-03-31T14:50:00.000-05:00

Suede jacket, wrap around me like a blanket
hold me close, until I close my eyes
until I fall asleep, until I dream
Dream of colorful things
flower blooms, the night and the moon
I meet you there, from the porch I stare
It was a home cooked meal
It was how I could feel
it was the wind off the fields
It was the flower's smell.
Can you hear them?
Can you hear them even now?
They have left us with these memories.
In the chair on the porch I will swing.
Wind, leave me before this storm.
The storm is close, so close I can see it with my eyes.
I shall stand tall, until I reach my dream

Generations come, more will soon follow
Lift me to Heaven, save me from the fire below.

warning signal

2007-03-23T13:43:00.000-05:00

I’m sending a warning signal
And I know you will hear
Because you’re the one
Who placed me here
You’ve paved the road
But it’s my task to walk
But lately my feet won’t move
And I’m nothing but talk
All the suffering that you endured
I’m sorry for the words you’ve heard
I must stop
I’m nothing but talk
The picture now is crystal clear
I’m the one who placed me here

remember that the ocean and campfires need singing to

2007-03-16T15:24:00.000-05:00

Dear Friend…
…when there is no longer a me
when I no longer exist
promise and remember
that the ocean and campfires need singing to
When time began there was the sea
It’s one of God’s great gifts
Promise and consider
the things He made are great and true
When you are with friends
Staring at the night sky
Gather and deliver
a song to the sparks and flames
and remember the millions of dreams
you dreamed under these stars
consider and remember

Flash

2007-03-15T11:46:00.000-05:00

one...
...two...
...three
3 miles from the lightning
the flash of light
cuts through this rainy night
like an old camera's bulb
here for an instant and then gone
the thunder dissipates
the picture fades but remains
outside
over and over and over
it rains
and I cannot stay the same
I am forced to change
as the Earth spins and spins

And a new day begins

crossedc fi ngteres

2007-03-15T11:00:00.001-05:00

ijt;s uarsd to ty[pe wirth crossed finers\

The Who Behind Blue Eyes

2007-03-08T10:15:00.000-06:00

No one knows what it's like
To be the bad man
To be the sad man
Behind blue eyes

No one knows what it's like
To be hated
To be fated
To telling only lies

But my dreams
They aren't as empty
As my conscience seems to be

I have hours, only lonely
My love is vengeance
That's never free

No one knows what it's like
To feel these feelings
Like I do
And I blame you

No one bites back as hard
On their anger
None of my pain and woe
Can show through

But my dreams
They aren't as empty
As my conscience seems to be

I have hours, only lonely
My love is vengeance
That's never free

When my fist clenches, crack it open
Before I use it and lose my cool
When I smile, tell me some bad news
Before I laugh and act like a fool

And If I swallow anything evil
Put your finger down my throat
And If I shiver, please give me a blanket
Keep me warm, let me wear your coat

No one knows what it's like
To be the bad man
To be the sad man
Behind blue eyes

---written by Pete Townsend

Right on thru

2007-02-28T11:51:00.001-06:00

If I make it to the pearly gates
I won’t even hesitate
And I’ll walk right on thru
Knowing that I did something good
Knowing that I did something good

photo

2007-02-26T18:31:00.000-06:00

I held the picture in my hands
it must have been at least 100 years old
and all I could do was stare
and wonder

silly me

2007-02-23T11:06:00.001-06:00

Sometimes I wonder how beautiful we could all be
If we lived for our dreams at all costs
Lived for what He would want us to be
Instead of for the almighty dollar
Instead of for money
I’m not saying all of us live this way
I prefer water over Coke
I prefer potatoes over Twinkies
But for a while now, my dreams have come second to money

F.M. Road

2007-02-19T11:18:00.000-06:00

The horse was inside the fenced pasture
But they sold it

Her kisses were like the days
warm and passing by one by one

I was her ride home
And she was my escape from myself

But when the one escaping
Is the one she falls in love with

Well, I think you know the ending
Sometimes I wonder if my gift is leaving

death

2007-02-15T16:01:00.000-06:00

A baby is born and sleeps
In his first weeks
he dreams his first dream
That stays with him
For a lifetime
And on the day of his death
When he closes his eyes
He dreams the dream
And hears the song
He heard when he was young
When he closes his eyes
He hears the lullaby
And his eternity becomes the dream
Unlike anything imaginable
Unlike anything he’s ever seen

my revelation

2007-02-09T10:10:00.000-06:00

The death of decadence
Self-indulgence, depravity, profligacy
Extravagance, wastefulness, recklessness
Won’t come
Not until it is all said and done
And we are gone

We have become
Accustom to these situations
Circumstances and conditions
Burn the flame
Until the revelation
Gives us conviction

Is it because I am human
That it is hard for me to gather my faith?
Build it up before it’s too late?

2007-01-27T22:32:00.000-06:00

Letting
In
Good,
Holy
Thoughts

2007-01-27T22:22:00.000-06:00

Demons
Arrive
Ready?
Kill

the stream of the rise and the fall

2007-01-24T17:59:00.000-06:00

I put my good money down
it wouldn't buy me anything
I put my best foot forward
it didn't lead to my dreams
I put my money in my pocket
and walked out the door
I'm never going back
there anymore
some days it's hard to survive
some days you’re doing well
trying to keep your dreams alive
some days you lose control of your life
and the demons thrive
it's the rise and the fall
don't let them take
it all
because they will
take it all
they will
take it all
I guess it all depends
where you want to go
but then again
What the hell do I know?
It's a mood ring
on your big toe
Follow
Follow
your heart
Follow
Follow
hope
Follow
Follow
the feeling

2007-01-17T21:58:00.000-06:00

Stop
and look
at what is going on.
Stop
and look
at what you are doing.
Stop
and look
at what we've done.
What we have allowed to take place.
Stop
and look
at what we are doing.
There needs to be a change.
Antarctica is experiencing rain.
Increasing strength in the hurricanes.
Greenland could no longer be
in another half century.
Yes I learned this from a movie,
but at least I see...
...what could no longer be.
It's up to you
and it's up to me.

Wishlist

2007-01-17T10:06:00.000-06:00

A song I wish I would have written because the words mean so much to me.
Thanks Pearl Jam...

WISHLIST
I wish I was a neutron bomb, for once I could go off
I wish I was a sacrifice, but somehow still lived on
I wish I was a sentimental ornament you hung on
The Christmas tree, I wish I was the star that went on top
I wish I was the evidence, I wish I was the grounds
For 50 million hands upraised and open toward the sky

I wish I was a sailor with someone who waited for me
I wish I was as fortunate, as fortunate as me
I wish I was a messenger and all the news was good
I wish I was the full moon shining off your Camaro's hood

I wish I was an alien at home behind the sun
I wish I was the souvenir you kept your house key on
I wish I was the pedal brake that you depended on
I wish I was the verb 'to trust' and never let you down

I wish I was a radio song, the one that you turned up
I wish...
I wish...

In awe and fear

2007-01-08T17:00:00.000-06:00

I had a dream that I was in His house
It had a glass ceiling
And while we all sat at His table
Eating His bread
The sky turned from the sun to the stars
At least a thousand times
It was the most breath-taking sight I had ever seen
This place is not only in dreams

I had a vision
When the hour struck seven
Those who believed
Outside of dreams
Aimed their hearts and voices towards Heaven
We let The Spirit run through
As we sang Hallelujah

the road

2006-12-18T20:46:00.000-06:00

good morning
boots beside my bed
yesterday's destruction
and today's dreams in my head
turn this minute
into my hour
and my hour
into my day
and my day
into my night
and my night
into my week
and my week
into my month
and my month
into my year
and my year
into my life
My life

it's a pity

2006-11-07T21:32:00.000-06:00

there are ashes in the tray
left by those who are no longer here
there are memories in my mind
left by those who are no longer near
there are papers in the attic
written a long time ago
there are angels everywhere
that one day I want to follow
there are people I think about all the time
that I never get to see
there are things that I want to be
that I will never get to be

there's a noise in my head...a constant rain...

2006-11-06T15:46:00.000-06:00

It's days like this I just want to go home, lift the blinds, stay in bed and watch the rain.

2006-10-20T18:57:00.000-05:00

the root of all humor is human nature

2006-10-20T12:58:00.000-05:00

human nature is the root of all humor

hold

2006-09-29T08:46:00.000-05:00

If I could hold my weakness in my hands
Would I crush it?
Or nurture it?
Would I try to drown it?
Or wash it in order to make it clean?
I guess it’s up to me
I guess it’s up to me

sorrow

2006-09-21T19:22:00.000-05:00

Here I am again
Desperately reaching out my hand
Towards the sky
Wondering why
Why, why these years have passed
Did I not shed the tears?
Did I not spill the blood?
If only I could hear the truth
Instead of nothing
I’m not acting
This is me
My soul
I don’t hear You
But I’m told you are there
I have faith
It’s my sorrow that gets in the way
I have this dream locked up inside
and I will die
if it never sees the light

Memory Me (reprise)

2006-09-15T15:47:00.000-05:00

Mind’s
Escape
Mind’s
Only
Recollection
You

Me
Eternity

whisper

2006-09-15T14:29:00.000-05:00

Whispered
Hush
I'm
Sleeping
Perfectly
Enter
Rest

?

2006-09-11T07:21:00.000-05:00

touch the water, but don't disturb it

a.m. Not another morning

2006-08-28T12:52:00.000-05:00

This morning I could hear the crow’s crow
Outside my window
It called once, twice, three times
it called once, twice
it called once, twice, three times
and then it must have flown away

Fake

2006-08-22T15:42:00.000-05:00

She said "I’m bound to fail before I even get started"
She always walks the path of the broken-hearted
She takes plastic flowers
And she puts them in water
She swears that she is nobody’s daughter
She doesn’t believe a word you say
But she’ll end up quoting you some other day
It’s this pile of mistakes
It’s the chances you’ll never take
It’s the reasons that your heart breaks
That makes you fake a smile

the key

2006-08-18T11:30:00.000-05:00

My heart can be your home
if you know me
you already have the key

---s.b.

musIc ( i am )

2006-08-15T10:44:00.000-05:00

I needed a break
Now I need it back
Music is my drug
I need to hear it, sing it, shout it…
Hear the words come back to me
Like throwing a bottle to the sea
Waiting for someone to find my words

no regrets

2006-08-15T10:42:00.000-05:00

You love what you love in this world
Make no apologies
Maybe it wasn’t meant to be

old songs

2006-08-09T14:01:00.000-05:00

music was my first love
a favorite song from the past
play it today and be taken back
memories, smells, emotions, song
help me to travel back as
more years come along
At 27
I am playing this record over and over again
At 27
I’m writing new songs to play soon for my friends
You know how the song goes
Thunder Road, Sound of Silence, Mr. Jones…
Put a record on
Turn the volume as loud as can be
And for this song let’s remember our history,
And stare into eternity

WEEEEEEEEEEEEE

2006-08-09T11:40:00.000-05:00

What
Everyone
Enjoys

Samoa

2006-08-05T22:37:00.000-05:00

in Samoa,
many travelers arrive the day before they left...
...because it's the last place on Earth the sun sets.

august

2006-08-01T10:24:00.000-05:00

I wish it would rain and not stop for a week.
Maybe then I could get some sleep.

saturday

2006-07-29T23:55:00.000-05:00

when the stars dive deep into the black sky
they paint a beautiful picture called night
and when the earth turns around the sun
the day unfolds and the night is undone
the monsters retreat
the people wake and hit their feet
for another turn
from night to day
wouldn't be as special
if you didn't come out to play